Friday, June 29, 2007

Stop The World I Wanna Get Off!!!

I had planned on handing out awards and maybe even tossing in a joke or two in tonight's post but to be honest I'm more on the verge of tears than I am laughter right now.

It seems that I have even more health problems to add to the list. Best case it's a bacterial overgrowth in my small intestine (that has stuck around for over a year now). Worst case... well cancer will most definately be the least of my problems. It's odd to hear someone say that isn't it? Lucky me, for the next three weeks I'm on a bland diet and it sucks knowing that proteins and the "good" fats make me sick as a dog (malabsorption issues). So much for eating chicken anymore. Dammit. They say one word about my Wild Cherry Pepsi though and I'm going to have to go Amazon on their asses!

Nobody ever wants to be a drain on the one they love. I know I sure as hell didn't. This wasn't the life I had planned on. This sure as hell isn't the body I thought I would have and I hate being trapped in it. Most of all though I hate knowing that I'm not what my spouse wanted to end up with and that he's most likely only here because he's afraid that without him (and thus without health insurance and a job) I would die and he would have to raise my kids.

I'll be in a better mood in the morning. Every night this week (but Wednesday) I've had a bout with this mystery illness and its just wearing on me. I'm just tired of being sick and tired. ;) This is my five minute version of a pity party. *sigh* Okay, over it! *snort*

In the meantime, I have opened access to the Onorach- Tact Is For Sissies and Sona Creidhe Reviews blogs so if you'd like to have a look around then feel free. Not much there yet but you can get a general idea of how each will go. The SCR blog will be nice and information but as for Onorach... if you thought I was a mouthy bitch here, oh honey you ain't seen nothing yet!

Have a wonderful weekend and I will try to hand out some awards tomorrow.



As Venomous Kate says... "Bite Me". You know you want to say it too!!

13 comments:

David said...

Have fun with the new blogs! They look nice. Ciao.

JaniceNW said...

Jo,

I'm sorry you're having more health issues. It's ok to have a pity party now and again. You have much going on your life and stress is part of the deal.

My McHub never signed on to have a depressed wife but that is what he got after our youngest died(at age 10 months, 2/2/96).

This is life, shit happens.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

Mad goat lady said...

Hey Jo..hope you get the bacteria under control quickly and feel on top of things soon. I am sure you are as sick and tired of being sick and tired as I am...hang in there girl! :D

Island Girl said...

I very much doubt that your husband is with you just to provide you with his job and health insurance, honey! I can understand you feeling down of course but I just don't think men work that way. I'm sure he's there because he wants to be.

And now for a frightening and hopefully amusing journey into the male mind. I just read a little bit of your post out to my husband. There was a long silence. Then he said "That really, really, really, really, really BITES BALLS!" with a heck of a lot of emphasis. I guess having their balls bitten is the worst possible thing they can think of?

Fair enough :)

Meg_L said...

Oh shit, You don't need more crap. Take care of yourself.

Jo said...

Janice- I am so sorry and thank you for reminding me (albeit not on purpose) that there are others dealing with much more. I've always said that all the cancer and illness in the world could never equal the pain of losing one of my children so my heart hurts for you.

MGL- At this point I'm just hoping it's bacteria. Usually Hubby Guy is pretty optimistic but even he shakes his head at me when I try to say it must be bacteria. I'm running out of room on my damn medicalert bracelet! I don't need more to try to squeeze on it! LOL. When do we get a nice spa holiday to make us feel better? :)

IG- Thank you for the laugh! Oh that is too funny and I haven't heard someone say "that bites balls" in years!! My hubby is an odd sort, I think he'd rather have his balls bitten than have say his car stereo equipment taken away. *snort* Personally I think he just can't stand the idea of being left alone in silence with himself on the way to work every night. LMAO.

Meg- I'll let you know what's going on after my next appointment which is in about 2 weeks.

Slackermommy said...

Sorry Jo. If it's any comfort I pray for you. Life is hard all on it's own and health problems on top of it must be frustrating.

Julie Pippert said...

I am really sorry to hear this. I so know that feeling. I amjoking I hope I don't get a traffic ticket right now because I have so many pinpricks and bruises on my arms they would probably arrest me and drug test me. LOL (mostly)

I really hope they figure it out, it's not too hard to handle (something relatively easy like eat more yogurt or cut out gluten, yes?).

And I hope you get to feel better soon. Hang in there.

Lill said...

Ah, Jo, not another hurdle for you. I'll include you in my meditations and send as much positive energy your way as I can. Who knows if it helps, but it can't hurt. Keep us posted and take it easy. Yogurt with good bacteria probably wouldn't hurt.

Shine On,
Lill

Angie Lee said...

Stop snorting, Jo, you're gonna make me spew Dew on my monitor again.

Take care, hon, and I hope you feel better soon.

JaniceNW said...

Jo,

You know it was not my point to say hey suck it up, my kid died, right? Never ever my intention! Everyone deals with their own stuff and one of my really bad things was my son had a genetic disease(very rare, 1 in 27 mill) we did not know we carried. I deal with it tho you've seen my blog and some days are better than others.

What you are going through is tough and nasty and you don't deserve it. I commend your activity to make people more aware. I appreciate that you are sharing your journey with us.

In my ideal world no one gets sick. No rare diseases, no breast cancer, no SARS. We can only deal with what occurs on our lives.

Hugs.

Summer said...

I've got nothing but (((HUGS))) for you. I hope its just something minor and easily fixable. And without taking the soda out of your diet. ;)

momof3feistykids said...

I am sorry you are going through all this. (((HUGS)))